This is Bull

I've been reading some things over the last few days. Not a single one of them makes me happy at all.

First a quick question, who lives with the motto "To Serve and Protect?"

Sure as hell isn't grocery stores, cashiers, street vendors or anything or anyone else along those lines.

Does anyone still not know?

Police
Fire Fighters
Military

Yet these same people and their families.... they get turned away from places because of their jobs.

THIS IS BULLSHIT!!!!!

Without those people there would be no America.

Without those people there would be no big money companies to take consumer profits and line their pockets.

Yet someone walks in with a shirt that says "Police lives matter, All lives matter" They're told to leave???

Someone wearing a hat that says Veteran and earned purple hearts lives on the streets?

THIS IS BULL! It's way beyond bull actually.

I can't believe that people in america, in a national consumer chain store have become so stupid and corrupt that they say "I can't serve you because I'm offended by your shirt" (hat or what ever else.) You make what... maybe $7.25 an hour part time? What gives you the right to say that they can't buy groceries? Do you own the company? If so why are you behind a cash register? Why are you a door greeter? Why are you going into the parking lot and pushing carts?


HEY BIG COMPANY:::: GET YOUR EMPLOYEES IN CHECK! If the personnel and families of those professions were to completely boycott your stores how much money do you think you'd loose? You're probably thinking "Oh well average family is 4-5 people so one family loss is not that much"

Do you have any idea how families with members outside of a central household are effected by this? An officer's brother who doesn't live there will surely stop. As will their parents, sisters, cousins, aunts, uncles, neices, nephews, and children. Not to mention close family friends. That is a minimum of probably 60 house holds that will stop going to your stores because of one idiot employee. Now multiply that by an average of let's say there's 200 officers that are in a station. 2-30 stations per city. (we'll go with 2 for this diagram) That is 24,000 families for one city that will no longer use your store!!! and let's just use Texas as an example with well over 3,200 cities in the entire state . (using the 3,200 for math) That makes a total of 76,800,000 families that refuse to go to your store!

How many profits will you have left after that? How will you keep that money in your pocket? You won't. There will be major downsizing, lost jobs, lost wages. And because of this your stores themselves will decline. Not enough cashiers, not enough stockers, not enough people cleaning. Your stores will end up looking like a dump with garbage and rancid food. In the end you wouldn't be able to afford someone to come out and fix that broken freezer so all the food in it goes bad and that will be less food you'll be able to sell because of the malfunction. Less money coming into the store and thereby less money to be able to keep up with supply and demand so you'll skyrocket your prices and even less people will come and buy and you'll cut wages and less people will work for you.

Chain reaction. That's all it is.

Next time do something about those employees of yours. Are they really helping your business? I for one will never go to a store that treats their customers, their PAYCHECK, in such a way and neither will any of my friends or family. Even if it was the only store in the city i'll go the next city or as far as 50 miles out of my way to go to a decent store that doesn't treat their customers like complete and utter crap.

I'm Here!!!!

So after much deliberation, a lot of stress and headache, depression, anxiety and a whole slew of other things I finally made the move to be with my babygirl. It was rough at times but we got through it and now we can move on with things and get our relationship under way and begin the biggest part of our journey together.

Mostly right now we're trying to get me acclimated to things here, its a bit of work but it is to be expected. New place, new experiences, new sights, sounds and all that.

For now, it is just a matter of getting ourselves used to living with one another and adjusting to one another as we go.

I cant really think of much more to say other than, I'm here and I'm happy to be here.

Another day

My server keeps going out on me while i'm in the middle of my video chat. I've been working a club as a bartender but every time i turn around i'm getting criticized and yelled at. "watch what you're eating" "do this" then sometimes later that same day "why are you doing that do this". "wear things like this" "that looks good on you" couple days later i wear similar "you need to put a shirt on over that why are you wearing that" "do it this way" hours later "do that this way" "that's too small why are you wearing that" "you look homeless dress better" when everyone knows that tattered jeans are all the rage. it's not like i'm going through wearing see through shirts and dresses with no bra or panties on beneath like many of the customers do. This happens on a daily basis and people wonder why i seem upset or distant and not as cheerful as i used to be. this isn't easy to deal with. Some say that this is emotional abuse, i've been hearing these things all my life. literally. i end up walking away and crying. i want to yell, i want to scream, i want to punch someone or something. because of all the complaints and downtalking i've wanted to run away. i've wanted to hurt myself. i haven't done any of that. i've only ended up crying. then i get yelled at for crying. "if you can't control your emotions and yourself then how can you control your children" how can i control my children when i'm not at home to do so because i'm out doing what i can to earn tips trying to make a living on that in order to pay the bills and rent and well, i'm behind because i'm not earning enough. i'm trying, i'm doing the best i can as a single mother but i'm constantly being told to buy this and do that and i just don't have the money to do so. i've even been told to take the kids to the park, by time i walk them there they'd be tired and wouldn't want to do anything at all so the point of doing that would be, well, no point. That's why I've turned here, turned to doing this, turned to becoming a cam model. It's not why i joined the lifestyle. That, was because no matter what I do i have no control over anything and everything i try to keep things structured, a schedule to follow. life is so much easier and better. That's what i liked about the navy there was a schedule. That's what i try to keep in my house, a structured schedule. That's one of the wonderful things of having a Daddy Dom. of being in the lifestyle. structure. yes there's pain, delicious pain but it gets rid of the pain and the voices in my head. it makes them quiet. then i can think. then i can do. i love my Daddy with all my heart and soul and it's not anything like stolkholm Those who don't understand the lifestyle, who think it's all 50 shades bs, throwing a virgin into a situation uninformed that she does not understand that is abuse. For me, a good flogging is much like electroshock therapy that a doctor would prescribe. a release from the pain, from the stress without having to worry about what comes next for once. Well everyone have a good day/night luvs ya and don't forget to check out my sites

struggling

I know i don't ask for much, i even try to do everything i can in order to get things done and together and my bills and rent paid including well being a cam model but that plus working at a bar for tips, either way i'm only making tips and it's just hardly cutting it. i'm at risk of loosing my house because i'm barely making enough to pay my bills. i've been given the chance to be able to buy my house but coming up with the money isn't easy. anything will be helpful if anyone has an extra dollar or two to donate. please i'm just trying to provide for my children. Thank you in advance to everyone who helps out be it sharing or donating.


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Again I want to thank you for helping me keep my little family together.