As of today i've gotten more hits on my clip site than i normally do and the day's just barely half over yay me! I know that Daddy's proud and happy. or will be once he sees it. the internet in which i'm using is going so very slow today *sighs* i feel like a snail trying to get anything done. Anyways I've had people ask me before the all time question for women, how do you care for, you know, down there? Shave, wax, trim? I reveled my secret to remaining hair free and smooth as a baby's bottom ^^ Normally I'm not going through and doing like tutorials of any kind or product showing but i just absolutely love my Keimi. instead of spending hundreds of dollars every month to wax hair grows back less and less doing it myself with the ease of an electric razor while still pulling out hair from the root.
That aside i know people like me don't like doing alot of things alone or by themselves. Soooo I'm thinking of taking cue from the Japanese and making some videos along those lines. Maybe not ones of me eating but... sometimes it's nice even believing that someone is there while you're sleeping or just waking up. some people do like watching other's sleep that's on them. I know I miss Daddy's voice and feeling his body against mine when i'm going to sleep or waking up myself so who's to say that i'm the only person that's just that lonely that even having a recording of him saying "goodnight baby girl i love you" or "good morning sweet pea it's time to start the day" I know i've slept better when accidently falling asleep while talking to him on the phone than i do when i'm not talking to him on the phone.
Oh, Opinion needed here. a friend of mine and I was thinking of making a lifestyle based club in the local area. Any ideas or suggestions? Do any of you have one around you and what's involved there? What kinds of things do they do and venues happen there? We're in this town that's rather stuck up but I know for fact there are a ton and i mean a ton of lifestylers here and there's no place for us at all but getting the city to approve is the issue so that's why i'm looking into having a plan 100% formulated that will knock their socks off.
Wednesday, May 11, 2016
Thursday, April 21, 2016
Daddy's lil soldier and our marching band. Pt.1
It's difficult for me to see My babygirl struggle, especially not being able to be there for her physically. I can be mental and emotional support, but without actually being able to hold her and tell her "Its okay, it's going to be okay" its missing that connection, but we're managing, we're getting by, together.
Some of the things she's told me other people have said, you'd think I get angry, and it used to be I would, but now I just laugh, why? Cause it's petty and beneath my ire. With people saying things like "You don't need him cause he ain't giving you all his money." or "You don't need him cause he ain't paying all your bills." Ahem!
1. I'm not here to be her meal ticket.
2. I'm not here completely financially support her. She's perfectly capable of living within her means and making her own money.
Pause, would I like to be the bread winner? Sure, any man worth his salt I think would agree with that statement, carrying on.
3. I am her Daddy DOM, say it with me Dominant, Dominant, one more time, Dominant, not her sugar Daddy, that sh*** just wrong.
4. Would I like to be able to say "Yes, I help take care of this and that, yes I help take care of her and the kids and help provide the things we need." sure I would she knows I do.
Right now though, I can't say those things in number 4, why? Cause I'm still trying to sort things out between me and my mom, my rock, my anchor, my stars and stripes. Being a single mother herself, she knows what My babygirl has had to suffer through, she knows what this woman is fighting for every single God blessed day.
She came first in my life like I came first in hers, I am her everything and she my hero and we all know this. I've told My babygirl several times, those kids came first way before me, they are her priority as my mother is to me.
I miss My babygirl every single day when I wake up, every single day when I go to sleep, I miss her in my thoughts, I miss her in my dreams, I miss her everything I do, but you know what? That's love in an LDR, in it purest form, that is love in an LDR, it allows me to appreciate the time I get to spend with her, to appreciate the little things she says and does. I wish for the world more people would get that through their thick heads, maybe then this world would be a better place.
But I also love my mother, I am her son after all, and to her I will always be her pup and she my mother wolf, who I've seen struggle just to make ends meet. What I owe her is not money, is not fame or fortune, is not even a debt which can ever really be repaid, I owe my mother my life because with out her I would not exist to sit here and tell you these things, to sit here and tell you what both her and My babygirl mean to me. They are my world and my everything, they and those that come with them, my mother and our family and My babygirl and our kids are all I really have, and that IS enough for me, that IS enough for me to be content, when all else is falling into ruin, as long as I have them I'm happy, as long as I have them, I have a reason to keep on fighting, I have a reason to keep on keeping on.
In this world, true it is hard to go at it together, but it is even harder to try and go it alone, just ask these two mothers just how hard it is to raise a child all by themselves, you want to know what they will say? Its damn near impossible, but I try my best to rise to the challenge, as I keep hoping and praying that some day things will get better, things will finally go my way and I can look back and say, I'm proud of myself for not giving up or giving in.
You don't know what true strength is until you have to try and raise a child on your own, compared to them, I'm a wet noodle, compared to them I'm as weak as a babe. The difference is, I see their suffering and I try my best to help them in any way I can.
To end, any assistance that you can offer, any support you can give will go a long way towards helping us achieve our goals and keeping her and the kids off the streets, had I a home to give her and them, they'd be right here next to me and this song I'd sing differently, but I'm not and I dont and I havent, I wish for the world it was a different story, I wish for the world I didn't have to say please help us, please help her, please help them but I do and I am and I hate having to, I really do.
This is the end of Pt. 1. Peharps part two will end differently. Only time can tell. Thank you for listening.
Sincerly, most sincere
Dear ole Daddy Ches.
Some of the things she's told me other people have said, you'd think I get angry, and it used to be I would, but now I just laugh, why? Cause it's petty and beneath my ire. With people saying things like "You don't need him cause he ain't giving you all his money." or "You don't need him cause he ain't paying all your bills." Ahem!
1. I'm not here to be her meal ticket.
2. I'm not here completely financially support her. She's perfectly capable of living within her means and making her own money.
Pause, would I like to be the bread winner? Sure, any man worth his salt I think would agree with that statement, carrying on.
3. I am her Daddy DOM, say it with me Dominant, Dominant, one more time, Dominant, not her sugar Daddy, that sh*** just wrong.
4. Would I like to be able to say "Yes, I help take care of this and that, yes I help take care of her and the kids and help provide the things we need." sure I would she knows I do.
Right now though, I can't say those things in number 4, why? Cause I'm still trying to sort things out between me and my mom, my rock, my anchor, my stars and stripes. Being a single mother herself, she knows what My babygirl has had to suffer through, she knows what this woman is fighting for every single God blessed day.
She came first in my life like I came first in hers, I am her everything and she my hero and we all know this. I've told My babygirl several times, those kids came first way before me, they are her priority as my mother is to me.
I miss My babygirl every single day when I wake up, every single day when I go to sleep, I miss her in my thoughts, I miss her in my dreams, I miss her everything I do, but you know what? That's love in an LDR, in it purest form, that is love in an LDR, it allows me to appreciate the time I get to spend with her, to appreciate the little things she says and does. I wish for the world more people would get that through their thick heads, maybe then this world would be a better place.
But I also love my mother, I am her son after all, and to her I will always be her pup and she my mother wolf, who I've seen struggle just to make ends meet. What I owe her is not money, is not fame or fortune, is not even a debt which can ever really be repaid, I owe my mother my life because with out her I would not exist to sit here and tell you these things, to sit here and tell you what both her and My babygirl mean to me. They are my world and my everything, they and those that come with them, my mother and our family and My babygirl and our kids are all I really have, and that IS enough for me, that IS enough for me to be content, when all else is falling into ruin, as long as I have them I'm happy, as long as I have them, I have a reason to keep on fighting, I have a reason to keep on keeping on.
In this world, true it is hard to go at it together, but it is even harder to try and go it alone, just ask these two mothers just how hard it is to raise a child all by themselves, you want to know what they will say? Its damn near impossible, but I try my best to rise to the challenge, as I keep hoping and praying that some day things will get better, things will finally go my way and I can look back and say, I'm proud of myself for not giving up or giving in.
You don't know what true strength is until you have to try and raise a child on your own, compared to them, I'm a wet noodle, compared to them I'm as weak as a babe. The difference is, I see their suffering and I try my best to help them in any way I can.
To end, any assistance that you can offer, any support you can give will go a long way towards helping us achieve our goals and keeping her and the kids off the streets, had I a home to give her and them, they'd be right here next to me and this song I'd sing differently, but I'm not and I dont and I havent, I wish for the world it was a different story, I wish for the world I didn't have to say please help us, please help her, please help them but I do and I am and I hate having to, I really do.
This is the end of Pt. 1. Peharps part two will end differently. Only time can tell. Thank you for listening.
Sincerly, most sincere
Dear ole Daddy Ches.
Saturday, March 26, 2016
struggling
I know i don't ask for much, i even try to do everything i can in order to get things done and together and my bills and rent paid including well being a cam model but that plus working at a bar for tips, either way i'm only making tips and it's just hardly cutting it. i'm at risk of loosing my house because i'm barely making enough to pay my bills. i've been given the chance to be able to buy my house but coming up with the money isn't easy. anything will be helpful if anyone has an extra dollar or two to donate. please i'm just trying to provide for my children. Thank you in advance to everyone who helps out be it sharing or donating.
Donate here
Again I want to thank you for helping me keep my little family together.
Donate here
Again I want to thank you for helping me keep my little family together.
Monday, March 21, 2016
Birthday came and went, things are still coming in the mail though. I got a new bra, shirt, a couple of dancers scarves, some hair accessories for my unruly mane that i had dyed burgandy which i've gotten many compliments on. I got a new little tail, and little isn't an understatement on that but now I have an idea of how to make one. now to find my glue gun and get a plug or two. there's more things coming too, a nail kit where i can start doing gel here at home and NOT pay 50$ for someone else to do them (not that i paid that amount anyways and my nails are all natural just trying to get them to grow better) A foot roller that gets off the caluses, those are slowly going away too a bit every day and one of those electronic tweezers because i don't like shaving and getting hair out by the root can almost guarantee that it doesn't return again. big plans for that since i hate hair in certain places so very much. hmm is that it? i'm thinking so, at least for now anyways.
I'm missing my Daddy something fierce and so wish that he was still here. his birthday is in only a few days but i don't have the money to be able to go and see him which makes me sad. i curl up every night with cinniman under the blankie that he left here. he says it was an accident but i'm not stupid because he tucked it all around me before saying that he had to leave. i know he left it here so that i could curl up in it. i miss him very much it's hard not having him here and i pray that he returns soon.
ended up having someone tell me that i didn'[t need him just because he doesn't pay all my bills. Daddy helps when and where he can but why should he pay for everything when he doesn't live with me? he's not a sugar daddy. when he was here i hardly had to pay for anything and we kinna fought over it. i think he ended up seeing that i am not out for his money but i do truly love him and that i do with all my heart and soul.
I'm missing my Daddy something fierce and so wish that he was still here. his birthday is in only a few days but i don't have the money to be able to go and see him which makes me sad. i curl up every night with cinniman under the blankie that he left here. he says it was an accident but i'm not stupid because he tucked it all around me before saying that he had to leave. i know he left it here so that i could curl up in it. i miss him very much it's hard not having him here and i pray that he returns soon.
ended up having someone tell me that i didn'[t need him just because he doesn't pay all my bills. Daddy helps when and where he can but why should he pay for everything when he doesn't live with me? he's not a sugar daddy. when he was here i hardly had to pay for anything and we kinna fought over it. i think he ended up seeing that i am not out for his money but i do truly love him and that i do with all my heart and soul.
Thursday, March 10, 2016
When the snuggles are gone...
Decided to surprise My babygirl for her birthday and boy did she love it!!! I had a great time too and cannot wait to go back, this time hopefully to stay. We took some pictures, made a couple videos (though one had a watermark all over it, we'll fix that eventually when we buy the licence for the video editing software), she even got tied up by me, not my best work but not half bad for a quick bind if I do say so myself. Hope you all enjoy, it was a lot of fun making it, started as a pampering session me treating her like a princess and ended in some fun for us both. ;)
*He sighs* To say the least I miss her and if I could I'd just pick up and move I would, but things are never that easy and other matters require my attention as well. Soon though I hope, my next visit will be my last visit as I'll be there to stay.
Well, a bit depressed right now but I'll manage knowing that My bbg is there, that's all I have for now. Hope you all enjoy, more videos to come.
*He sighs* To say the least I miss her and if I could I'd just pick up and move I would, but things are never that easy and other matters require my attention as well. Soon though I hope, my next visit will be my last visit as I'll be there to stay.
Well, a bit depressed right now but I'll manage knowing that My bbg is there, that's all I have for now. Hope you all enjoy, more videos to come.
I miss my Daddy we had so much fun while he was here. I even got tied up!!!
We made a video and i finally got it edited and uploaded, hope I did it right, had another one but it had a watermark all over it cause i hadn't bought the license for it yet. One day I will. That's a guarantee in that. Enjoy everyone and more to come. just a bit depressed right now because he had to go back. there's some things he needs to take care of first before he can move here. well until next time.
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